It began as a lonely year as does most days when I wake up. I'd have to say the year 2004 was one of the hardest years of my life...full of betrayal, loss, pain, tears, etc...etc...
I'm a bit happier now...I moved in with my real father. The choice was given to me and I chose him over my step dad. But I lost alot...my animals whom I loved dearly. Then my step dad rubs it in my face saying I never took care of them wish of course isn't true I took better care of them then he did. My new years resolution was not to get the federal law in any of my problems...yet I have to fight. I have to go to court for my animals my money he stole from me for the social security I never recieved since the death of my mother.
It's not over...and it won't be for a while and in the end I don't know if I'll come out on top or worse then ever before.
But there are some positive things to look forward to...
I finaly turn 18, something I've waited and earned for almost a life time.
And I graduate...May 26 on a Thursday at 2:00 PM at one of the best places in West Palm. I'm so happy...half of my senior year is over. I know my mom would be so proud of me for not giving up. And I can't wait to walk down that aile to recieve my diploma. Just thinking about it and picturing it brings me to tears.
I actually want my step dad there, I think he deserves that at least. After all he did raise me since I was a year old. He was there for me until the death of my mother and he did pay for the yearbook and things like that.
It will be his decision if he wants to or not...I won't force him but I would enjoy him being there...I'll be damned to hell if he's bringing his girlfriend though.
My eldest brother from New Hampshire is moving back down here. It's been a little over a year since I've seen him. We've kept in contact but not as much. But I'm happy he's going to be at my graduation too. I'm looking forward to it other then the fact that all my friends will probilty loose contact.
I'm not much of a party person always having the fear of if I went to a club would someone slip something into my drink and rape me. Though I have to admit the day my two friends and I went to go get my stuff from my step dad's house I had a blast.
We had to pick up a guy to help us because my stuff was too heavy and the girls were both pregnant lol.
But it was great my friend Ashley and Judy (Step dad's g/f) got into it. My dad was also happy I stayed with him. Though I'm mostly out any way.
I do miss being online...hell I miss everyone online even though who I didn't get along with. My dad was thinking about getting some cheap internet service...mainly NetZero...::twitches:: I remember having it and hating it...but at this point something's better then nothing. I just want to talk to all my friends again. It's hard calling them all I mean I have free long distance but when I'm out I don't have a cell phone and some I can't call until after nine and I'm usually sleeping by then or there never home...like Corinne ^_^ love ya girl.
Rick, Paul, Either and Draco, Rathma, sorry I didn't get to call you guys back. I'll make it up to you all ~_^
Tony tell your mom to stop taking your cell phone! lol
Daniel you prefer my sister over me so I'll let that slide for now ::smiles::
Mir I love ya girl hope everything's going alright with you.
Kitsune Conner wish you the best, Billy if I don't get a word back from you within the next month I'm coming up there for an ass beating. Terry same thing for you...infact double!
Memnon and Chris you guys are hard to get ahold of man. Whit you have better been a good girl in my absence!
I miss everyone from the role play. Hell I don't even think I remember how to rp lol.
Though since I can't role play I have been writing more, I'm working on two stories. One from a character in the rp and another one that everyone seems to have fallen in love with.
My poems are still being written I thought I would have lost my ability to write btu I was wrong thank goodness.
Other then that things are alright...school is easy. I'm also getting a job soon again, after all I've only been out of work since Mid-September..hehehe
I've enjoyed my vacation but I've also been going on side jobs so my teacher isn't on my case as much anymore. But we all need money it's what makes the world goes round sadly.
But I made another promise to myself...to have as much fun as I possibly can this year. I hope everyone else enjoys this new year I wish everyone the best.